I am currently 37 weeks pregnant and my whole pregnancy has been well, crazy.
I saw this great article a few weeks back and I wanted to share it and talk about it for a moment.
People make comments about how they’re sure I can’t wait to be done since pregnancy is so awful, etc. (I’ve blogged elsewhere about comments like this if you’d like to see more). There have been comments about…well what did you “really” want in regards to me having a boy, or before we knew what we were having. This is all besides the point.
Another question I’ve been asked is about what birth control I’ll be going on after, how long we want to wait to try again, etc.
But the thing I feel like most people don’t understand is that…we have come to terms with the fact that there is a very good chance this is going to be our one and only child.
Even now it’s a painful question when asked about our future family plans — and it is no one’s business.
After a miscarriage and two and a half years of fertility treatments, five medicated cycles – including 3 IUIs, we’ve been through a lot already. We are so grateful for our little miracle we have on the way. But the sheer exhaustion, both physically and emotionally of going through fertility treatments was hard enough on just me and my husband. I can’t imagine having a small child and going through all of that again.
I know the physical effects that the medications had on me was hard. I was exhausted, temperamental, clingy and a whole slough of other emotions. Plus the two week waiting window, both to ovulate and to find out if it had worked or not, combined with several appointments a week…I can’t imagine dragging a toddler through all of that.
Maybe I’ll feel really differently when our son is two or three years old and feel that we can all handle it. But I may not.
Plus the fact that when our son is a few months old, I will be moving away from the wonderful team of doctors I had.
Yes I realize that we would be making the conscious decision to not have more children but beyond that it’s the decision to not put ourselves and especially our child, through what was the most difficult journey we have ever been on.
For the meantime, we will enjoy these last few weeks of this pregnancy and our time with our sweet baby, who we are so excited to meet.